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Sunday, December 14th, 2008
7:43 pm
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Tuesday, September 30th, 2008
10:37 am - .
Why can't thing ever be simple?
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Wednesday, July 16th, 2008
9:00 pm - CROG
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Saturday, June 21st, 2008
3:51 pm
I just want to say that I love Jay. What I could not accomplish for 2 months she did in one night.
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Sunday, June 15th, 2008
12:21 am
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Sunday, June 8th, 2008
5:07 pm
i hate family functions.
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Sunday, April 27th, 2008
1:09 pm
Lucky number seven.
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Sunday, April 6th, 2008
7:28 pm
I was just sitting here and thinking about why I am such a emotional rock and basically don't show any feelings and am so cold. I think that whenever I used to get excited about something or look forward to something happening I just would always end up getting disapointed because it would never work out and something would always get in the way. Case and point: Grog. I remember the shady period when he was sooo sketchy and everytime we were supposed to hang out, some situation would come up and prevent it from happening for the longest time. Whenever I seem to show emotion about something or be happy about something, it always seems to never happen. What's the point of showing emotion if it gets you nowhere? I don't really know the point of this entry but I'll just keep rambling on anyway. I just feel so alone. And not because I dont have a boyfriend, because I don't need that to make me feel fulfilled. But I've just been feeling so blah lately, like something is missing. Maybe I am just empty inside and will always be empty inside as I've been told by certain people.
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Saturday, March 29th, 2008
4:10 pm
honestly, i am so sick of my life. This shit just aint cutting it. Sat home on friday night doing nothing, and now going to sit home doing nothing on saturday night. what a great weekend. I just wish I could start all over. BYE.
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Saturday, March 15th, 2008
3:42 pm - Why I Hate Men.....
Current Text Messages:

Asshole: You know if you're not feeling well I'm an excellent doctor
Sara: oh, really?
Asshole: oh yes, I have lots of ways to make you feel better
Sara: :no response:
Asshole: How about this, I'll let you pick which way you want me to take you :)
Sara: oh my.
Asshole: You could be saying or yelling that, and more. Either way you'll feel a lot better afterwards.
Sara: Yeh. What about your girlfriend?
Asshole: She's away for the weekend and plus this is about us just having fun for a night.

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Tuesday, January 15th, 2008
7:58 pm - some quotes
Some things are more than what you say, they're what you do. Some things you say cause there's no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves

It was a catch-22: if you didn't put the trauma behind you, you couldn't move on . But if you did put the trauma behind you, you willingly gave u your claim to the person you were before it happened

Sometimes we wait too long for things that are never going to come.

But there's a story behind everything. How a picture got on a wall. How a scar got on your face. Sometimes the stories are simple, and sometimes they are hard and heartbreaking

Realize that falling in love with someone is just the results of a series of generic events that can occur between you and basically anyone who meets your standards of attractiveness. It’s just an emotional manifestation of a handful of chemicals bouncing back and forth. It’s not the holy grail of living, it’s not your reason to exist and it’s definitely not something reserved for “that one person.” Accept that you are just an animal with a big brain that allows him to fret over what only amounts to a game of hormone pool. What you’re feeling is not your soul dying a gurgling, ugly death, but withdrawal. All the happy chemicals that saturated your body when you were with him are kicking out cold turkey and your body is screaming bloody murder, “Where are my effing endorphins?” It’s just chocolate. Find a new bar.
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Monday, January 14th, 2008
6:26 pm
How do you just stop loving someone?
2 begging| on your knees
Friday, January 4th, 2008
4:48 pm
I think I need to take it down a notch.
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Tuesday, January 1st, 2008
11:54 am
hmm i dont even know what to say. last night was an interesting night to say the least. god if you were to compare this new years with last years....boy have things changed. Last year never would have ever imagined that my life would be this way right now. This year was such a major turning point in my life. I've done some pretty crappy things but I dont regret any of it. Sure I wish things could have turned out a litle differently, but theres no sense harping on it now.

I've met a lot of interesting men just in this past month alone. But ehh I dont really like them that much at all. I don't know whats wrong with me. No one really is doing it for me. And of course , all the weirdos, freaks, annoyances, all came crawling to me, but the guy I actually could like is too busssssy and too far to see me or talk to me. sigh.
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Monday, December 31st, 2007
7:19 pm
well even though i can tell that tonight is going to be a very barren night with jay....i wouldnt have it any other way <33
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Saturday, December 29th, 2007
1:20 pm
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Monday, December 24th, 2007
11:57 am
I don't know why but I am in such a volatile mood right now.
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Saturday, December 22nd, 2007
11:49 am
since I actually met a guy i actually liked last night, we all know he's not going to call me. bye.  
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Tuesday, December 18th, 2007
5:50 pm - thoughts
How come when I show no interest whatsoever in guys they are all flocking to me. Texting, calling, wanting to hang, being annoying, missing me, and blah balh blah. When I don't give a shit and don't care, thats when they come around. The ones I don't want to call me, always call. Well how come then whenever I show even the least bit of interest, or I make the text, or the call or want to hang with them...well then they don't seem that interested? Its sooo annoying. I could be barren for weeks and then when I dont want anything it all comes at me all at once. Its like I have to play these games and be a bitch for guys to be interested in me or want to pursue me because they like the chase. ugh. wtf.
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Monday, December 17th, 2007
12:15 am
I just would like to thank Jacqueline Marie Teta for coming home from bing and for being the cause of my shambled life. <333
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